Yes Mistress

When I made you stop and turn over and lie on your stomach, denying even the overwhelming urge to hump the bed…how did that feel? I wanted you to feel the same torture I felt over wanting so badly to enter you, fill you up.

I hope that it felt as torturous as driving home and resisting the urge to put my hand down my panties and fill my own space. Couldn’t scare My carpool companion.

I came quietly up the stairs to my bed the moment I got home, sliding My panties off halfway up the stairs. Everyone was asleep. I closed the door and got into bed, lying on My stomach. I pictured you falling asleep like that, lying on your stomach, wanting so bad to grind your hips into your mattress. I started to grind my own hips into the mattress…

Turning over, I remembered your breathing in My ears while you were jacking off for Me, doing just as you were told. My mind wrapped back to our conversation about the powerful feeling of being attached to a cock and having a soft cock get hard in your mouth.
You’re such a little slut.  >.<

I put two fingers in My cunt and and pushed them in and out, rubbing My clit with My thumb. I stopped Myself right before I was going to cum so I could prolong the insane feeling of being on the edge. I turned My head so I could see Myself in the mirror and started fucking again. It didn’t take long for My orgasm to build up and I let it go, cumming and cumming.
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Can you believe that you let 24 hours pass without commenting on the blog?
You know that bad boys get punished.

Mistress, You asked me to take the time right now and write to You about how You making me take Your training collar off of my neck makes me feel. The best response i can give you is… Cold. i feel alone, unprotected, unloved, exposed. my neck feels like i’m missing something. A part of me. It has been part of me for so long now that taking it off feels… wrong. i know i dissapointed You and i must be punished but i feel like You’re punishing me on a very deep level. my brain ties the collar through to your caring about me and your controlling of me and the fact that you made me take it off makes me feel… disconnected and cold. i want it back. i want You back. i will do anything to get Your collar back on my neck. i will listen to your orders more precisely and quickly and i will be obedient. i have been very immature to overlook a specific order You gave me because i felt something important came up. i KNOW that you are paramount to anything and that for us to work You MUST be paramount to everything. If You are not you will not be in controll and that helps nobody.
More than anything - taking my collar off makes me feel sorry. i just want to fix things, to fix myself to get my collar back - and your love with it.

you were told. you disobeyed. do everything in this order.
• take off your clothes
• tie your wrists together as tight as you can get them
• get some rice from your kitchen (if you don’t have rice use uncooked pasta that you have broken into little pieces)
• sprinkle a handful on the floor in front of a wall, about a foot away from the wall
• kneel on the rice, facing the wall, with your tied hands in front of you
• count to 100
• put your forehead on the wall
• count to 300
• take your forehead off the wall
• count to 100
• get up from the floor
• untie your wrists
• get dressed
• clean up the rice so that not a single piece is left behind

When you are in the counting phase of this punishment, your mind should be on the things that you were asked to do and remember how important they are to your Mistress. Do not let anything else distract you from the counting. Nothing. Say each number quietly as you count. If you make a mistake, start over from the beginning. Do not stop until you have counted through, perfectly. This will last as long as it takes you to count flawlessly.

When you have counted, untied, dressed and cleaned up…leave a comment.